T.T

just let them see my report card ..
and their reaction was like ..
dad : heng .. all not passed .. math lah .. just 40 something ... all average ngam ngam hou 60..
mom : heng .. lucky her lo ..

i was like .. ..
izzit that the comment u all can giv to me?
izzit a parents should say these to their children..
aren't they suppose to encourage me more?
instead of criticize my result...

u all know how sad and mad when i heard those wat u all had said about my result?
do u all know how i felt?
do u all know how sad i was? do ya all?

do u all know how hard that i have to been through another year in a same form?
with all the pressure of humiliation . did u all try to comfort me when i knew that i had to retain for another year?
No~! . u all didn't . when u all saw me cried that time , all u can say is just. '' wat are u crying for ? '' .

i hate u all so much .
everytime u think is just . '' did u pass this time? dont need tell me i also know u cant .. do u know wat a waste of money that dad have to pay for another year ? if u cant pass this year , aiya . change to another school la ''
izzit that u want ? change to another school ?
talking on the phone with another side said how bad i was .

everytime comparing me with brother ..

did u all really understand me?
did u all try to look from my situation and think about it?

i really hate u all .. i really hate u all ~!
u all dont even know how sad i was ..
crying in the toilet . every tears drops falling down and u didnt know how suffering it was~

No.. u all will nvr know .. cz u didnt even care bout it

all u all care is my result. not my feelings .